sounds to me that you are trying to work your way into heaven.

Don't get me wrong its good to do good, but folks like to go about and establish their own righteousness, and that want get ya into heaven.

only trusting in Christ as your savior will do that.

he loves you he gave himself for you; and his arms are open for you to you.

hes the only one that can change our wicked selfish hateful prideful lustful hearts.