Histamine, LDN & Lyme Dx – MS Therapies

Marilyn Bachmann
So so Sorry
Wed May 24, 2017 22:10

I have not spoken with the doctor that would perform this procedure, so the process is not about to happen imminently anyway. So I have to discuss with this doctor what my options are… My concern has been being in a situation of just too much suffering. But I am also feeling so much empathy and love for David that I am hoping that maybe I can make it through at least the summer. Just to have as much time as possible together. I've had a couple of near miracle recoveries from sepsis, etc. so now that I am very comfortable with the inevitability of it all, I feel stronger, perhaps, a little more able to get through the daily grind, but also appreciate with greater profundity that this time is worth fighting for, worth the daily effort of living in a wheelchair. Hopefully I have not scared off my staff, and I really do not mean to be a drama queen, I was genuinely ready to go, but leaving David is just too damn hard.I am so sorry for any distress I have caused. I have spoken to the doctor's office and I am going to fill out the paperwork to have it in place. I still cannot quite trust in the medical system, I can see tremendous strains on it. And a few other headwinds, so I do have an intuitive feeling that I have to be ready to go whenever…

All of this is, of course, dependent on luck and beneficence of the universe… and this may sound batshit crazy, but when I was meditating (I am now astounded at how this is working for me) I got the strong "message" that I should stay put and try to add positive frequencies to the universe, that I am needed to do that. Explained the doctor that I had a kind of spiritual experience when meditating, and I can now "Enter The Void", a term used in meditation gguide books…rreally did not expect a second wind… I have been married for 42 years, June 1 will be 43, and the only thing I feel now,, and want to feel is love and hang on for that reason. I am so lucky to have this, I can't imagine why I everr thought I could abandon that love prematurely. Having that love is worth a heck of a lot tribulation… Love you all and I will try to be on here regularly as I can.

  • i wish i could help jul, Tue May 23 20:54
    i'm so sorry. i keep reading your post and cry. how awful our life is. i'm thinking about u all the time.
    • Re: i wish i could help Bachmann, Sun May 28 16:45
      I am not sure why we win this terrible lottery. I have no answers. I do know that I don't particularly like what I am seen as far as direction of the world…... more
      • Re: i wish i could help Marilyn Bachmann, Sun May 28 16:51
        All Conspiracy? http://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/stephen-harper-bohemian-colin-powell-1.3764739 I think it usually takes place in July,, but they've moved it up.
    • So so Sorry Marilyn Bachmann, Wed May 24 22:10
      • good to hear from you, Marilyn! Cathy S, Thu May 25 07:30
        Marilyn, Delighted to hear from you and that you are currently in a good place. Last time you were on you were probably just having a bad day, we all have them all too frequently! We have to try to... more
      • You have so much to offer. I always look forward to your posts. David is a good incentive and He would miss you terribly as we would. A lot of prayers are being said for you. Jeanie :)
        • Re: I am elated that you will still be posting > Marilyn Bachmann, Thu May 25 16:57
          A Bouquet Of Thanks… I know it may sound like New Age hooey, but I really did get the strong feeling that I have to face the music… I truly believe this life will only improve when each individual... more
    • Anyone heard from Marilyn? Cathy S, Wed May 24 15:59
      Dear Jul, Thank you for your response. Has anyone heard from Marilyn? - I have been extremely worried about her. It’s awful having tried so hard for so long to keep going and keep on top of this... more
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