Mary Brooding
I think you get to decide.
Wed Jan 9, 2019 22:58

OOC -- fine by me! XD. IC:

Mary considered Dorian with a careful gaze. He was obviously excited, but she wasn't sure whether his reluctance to accept the proposition was due to his uncertainty that he was understanding correctly, his own self-esteem, or not being sure how to politely decline. There were thoughts spinning behind his eyes and she wished terribly to be able to fish them out and talk to him about them.

"You know that my family passed away when I was young?" she asked, confirming context before she continued. Her voice was even, proof that she had long since accepted the deaths of her family members. "Normally, my father or brother would walk me down the aisle at a wedding. Without them here, it should be someone that . . " Someone that what? It was inappropriate to say that they loved each other, even if that was true in an appropriate sense, and someone I value sounded clinical. "It should be someone that is important to me, and I'd like if you wanted to walk me down the aisle."

She wondered suddenly if Dorian's confusion was related to the fact that it was two women getting married, and he wasn't sure how that worked with an aisle. "Tabitha is going to be at the front, and I'm going to walk down the aisle, just like other weddings you've maybe seen before." She smiled warmly, hoping to settle any concerns. The nerves she'd had in asking Dorian this at all had steadily increased and she was feeling a bit like she'd like to hide her face.

Then he surprised her.

Am I allowed to ask you questions?"

She wasn't sure exactly what his concern was but the fact that he seemed so worried about asking questions at home made her feel nauseous. At the same time, she felt all sorts of warm that he trusted her and was comfortable. She was a safe adult for him, and that meant so much. A possible future, with little children in hers and Tabitha's home seemed desirable and she almost laughed at herself for thinking of such things so soon. That would've made Dorian uncomfortable though, so she settled on a smile instead.

"You can ask me anything," she said genuinely. "If there's anything that you say that I don't want to answer or that feels offensive, we can talk about that too so you'll know. But you can ask anything." She wasn't sure whether his questions were about her or about himself or about something else, and she was hesitant to push the issue. "Boys and girls don't have to marry each other," she added. "You know Professor Hawthorne's halfblood, but her family is very involved in politics and things. It doesn't matter who you are, you can love anyone." Mary smiled, hoping that it was a generally applicable comment.

  • The next... Dorian, Wed Jan 9 06:49
    This time, Dorian had more of a chance to focus on the request Professor Brooding was making. Walk her down the aisle. He blinked in confusion, not really having heard that part the first time. He... more
    • I think you get to decide. — Mary Brooding, Wed Jan 9 22:58
      • The next, I'm at rock bottom.Dorian, Fri Jan 11 07:42
        You know that my family passed away when I was young? Honestly, the answer to that was no. He had not known that. He couldn’t remember ever really talking much with Professor Brooding about her... more
        • I had a pet rock once.Mary Brooding, Fri Jan 11 10:41
          Mary grimaced at the realization she had perhaps field to mention her family members' deaths before. It was a morbid topic and not one she preferred to spring on people. Her grief ran deep but it had ... more
          • Over and over, all day longDorian, Fri Jan 11 20:38
            OOC - oops realised I never specified him sitting down and then suddenly he was. I pictured him more having taken a seat at some logical point, rather than collapsing to the floor in a miserable... more
            • This too shall pass.Mary Brooding, Sun Jan 13 01:58
              Mary considered quietly and carefully. She was loathe to frustrate or embarrass Dorian, but he was a rational boy and she doubted that comfort would help him any. She couldn't use Tabitha as a... more
              • “Can she do that?” he asked, in a frightened voice when Professor Brooding talked about the risk of Professor Skies firing her for marrying Professor Hawthorne. He knew people could be mean but there ... more
                • Undo! Backup! Reverse! Abort!Mary Brooding, Mon Jan 14 17:45
                  Mary grimaced, realizing with a big lump of dread that she shouldn't have used the example that she did. This wasn't exactly the time to admit that yes, sometimes people of non-normative sexual... more
                  • Come back!Dorian, Tue Jan 15 19:40
                    "Ok," Dorian nodded, when Professor Brooding assured him that he wasn't about to be kicked out. "And are any of those other things going to happen? To you?" he asked, noticing that she had only... more
                    • I'm always here. Mary Brooding, Wed Jan 23 20:51
                      Mary allowed her shoulders to relax, surprised by how much tension they'd in carrying through this conversation. She was certain that she was projecting, or possibly just confronting some of her old... more
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