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Jehan
Starting to doubt
Thu Aug 16, 2018 11:56
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Jehan was enjoying a happy little daydream of him and Dorian at the bookshop, of sharing his new world with his best friend, when suddenly such thoughts were shattered.

“We are not supposed to go- there are reasons.”

And, all at once, Jehan’s perception of the two being soulmates was called into question.

Jehan was not your average little boy. Admittedly, no two people are the same, but everybody subscribes to a general idea of what is acceptable and what is not. Jehan subscribed to no such general idea. He was very well aware that Victor, his parents, and society in general had rules regarding what was and what was not permitted. However, the widespread acknowledgement of these rules did not mean that Jehan felt they necessarily applied to him. The world was a strange place, but Jehan had always felt there was a type of logic running through it, a logic that formed the basis of his own idea of what was and what was not acceptable. If society’s rules were not logical, Jehan did not see that they should apply to him.

In this situation, Jehan knew that the Muggle world was forbidden. And, on the day he had found the bookshop, he had not set out to break this rule. The rule had been one that he had not really considered, given that it had never previously been relevant. However, something had made him decide to take that step into the Muggle world, and nothing he had discovered since that moment had led him to the conclusion that the rule was logical. Therefore it was not a rule he now considered himself bound by.

Hearing Dorian disapprove of his actions immediately extinguished Jehan’s previous enthusiasm. He had never even stopped to consider that Dorian would be concerned about his forays into the Muggle world, and why would he have? He and Dorian were kindred spirits, soulmates, above petty societal prejudices, and sharing the same ideas about how the world worked. But this was apparently not the case, and Dorian seemed to have the same problem as Victor.

For as wonderful as his older brother was, Jehan knew that Victor didn’t understand him. Victor was part of society, he cared about rules and doing the proper thing, not understanding that the ‘proper thing’ was not always a synonym for the ‘right thing’. Jehan had never explained this to someone else, never fully clarified this position inside his own head, but it was something he knew instinctively, something that made him who he was, that made him not always fit in with the world around him. He’d thought Dorian to be the same as him, hadn’t realised that Dorian stuck by the rules that made no sense.

Jehan moved away from Dorian slightly, and shrugged.

“There aren’t reasons,” he contradicted, his tone much less happy and enthusiastic. For Jehan, the situation was as simple as his reply suggested. He saw no reason to stay away from the Muggle world, and so he would continue to visit the bookshop that made him so happy.

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