With you, everything is timeless
Mon Aug 20, 2018 09:42

Dorian’s agreement to the statement about risks in both worlds confused Jehan slightly. He was thrown a little off-kilter in the way that one always is when, expecting a rebuttal, one’s opponent instead concurs and thus changes the argument into an agreement. This, combined with Dorian being upset, took away a lot of Jehan’s irritation at Dorian’s response and at the world in general.

And then Dorian was running a hand through Jehan’s hair, and he knew everything was okay between them again, that this had all been a simple misunderstanding, and they were Jehan-and-Dorian once more.

“Don’t apologise for crying,” replied Jehan, not wanting his best friend to feel the need to hide any emotion from him. “I just don’t like seeing you sad.”

And then Dorian apologised again, and this time it was both unnecessary but also much appreciated, in that it cleared up their previous misunderstanding. “I thought you just didn’t like the Muggle world, like…like my parents, and other people, and it’s not fair, they shouldn’t just judge other people without any evidence, just because they’re different.” Jehan could have gone on at length about the injustices dealt to the Muggle world by the Wizarding world, but that wasn’t the problem here, so he let it go, and relaxed further with the full realisation that he’d got the conversation wrong and that Dorian hadn’t been against the Muggle world on principle, just concerned for Jehan’s safety.

That was a comforting thought, and Jehan smiled at Dorian, a sweet smile that tried to contain a lot of feelings – Jehan was feeling a lot of things right now, because Dorian was so caring and so close and something about Dorian being there and holding him and worrying about him made his tummy feel a little weird, in a good way, and he had the sudden urge to lean forward and press his lips to Dorian’s, to get even closer to the other boy – but then also his brain brought up a reminder of summer days and Oliver’s face, and Jehan didn’t know quite what to make of that, but then Dorian changed the topic and the moment was very definitely over anyway. If it had even been a moment in the first place, and not another of those one-sided things Jehan kept having over Dorian, even though he’d told himself that he was over the other boy.

Jehan looked down after Dorian asked the question, not sure what to answer. It wasn’t something he’d pondered at length, having always accepted that his parents were who they were, and rather irrelevant at that. He preferred to talk about other things to Dorian, especially because he knew Dorian didn’t like talking about home and about Matthieu.

“It’s not bad,” he replied, shrugging, because to be bad something had to have the potential to be better, right? “It’s just…not home. But Victor’s there, so it’s ok.” Visiting Dorian’s house had given him a different viewpoint of the word ‘home’, as had seeing Richard’s relationship with Oliver. Jehan’s relationship with his parents wasn’t like that, and that was just a fact, and home for him didn’t mean the same as it did for some other people. He wasn’t looking for pity, just stating a fact, and his feelings about home were muddled by the presence of Victor. Yes, it definitely wasn’t bad, because nowhere could be bad if Victor was there.

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