You can't tell your wishes!
Tue Jul 17, 2018 05:31

Admittedly, Dade hadn’t really thought through what was going to happen after he told Drew that he’d failed his STOATs. If he had thought it through, though, what he would have expected was some sort of friendly commiseration or maybe a comment on how this year was going to be better or maybe something else. What he did not and would not have expected was for Drew to sit next to him and put an arm around his shoulders. It was good that Dade was already clearly embarrassed about failing his exams, because otherwise his face would have turned as red as it was now anyway, but in a more awkward way, because the first thing that came to Dade’s mind when Drew put his arm around him was the idea of what if I kissed Drew and that was just - wow. Nope. Nope nope nope -

And then, slightly less embarrassingly, the third-year found that his vision was suddenly all swimmy and he put his head on his knees, pressing down hard so it wasn’t super obvious that he was kind of crying. But Dade wasn’t going to cry, there wasn’t a good reason to cry. Except there kind of was. Drew was the first person Dade had actually told about his exam results; Rose had found out by looking at the post that had come in. And while Rose had been supportive in her own way, she was busy working and getting ready for school, and she wasn’t an overtly affectionate person most of the time. Dade didn’t really do the hugging thing but Drew’s family did, which apparently meant that Drew did, which made sense except that it was suddenly making things very, very confusing for Dade.

He hadn’t ever wanted to kiss someone before. And he wasn’t going to kiss Drew, because even if that were something that wasn’t super awkward and probably a bad idea (because to start with, Drew was dating Darlene, and on top of that, neither Dade nor Drew were gay), he absolutely would not be kissing Drew in the middle of Defense Against the Dark Arts, even if the lab bench partially obscured them from the rest of the class. It was good that Professor Rob had moved all the Veritaserum after Kit had knocked it over that one time, because Dade super did not want Drew to know what was going on in Dade’s head right now. Dade didn’t want to know what was going on in Dade’s head right now.

Oh no but he had to say something. What was he supposed to say?

Then Dade realized that while his mind was busy spinning he had kind of leaned into Drew’s hug and that was probably really awkward and so he pulled away. The idea of kissing Drew flashed into his mind again and Dade shoved it away violently with a physical shake of his head, as though that would help banish the thought entirely.

“Thanks,” the third-year said uncomfortably. “I - thanks.” Dade shifted, then quickly rubbed the back of his hand across his eyes, which were coming uncomfortably close to leaking water again. “I told your dad I’d come to class again, and Professor McKindy put an age line on my door so nobody older than me can come in. He said the wards I’d put down were really good and that if I wanted to come to his office instead of coming to class sometimes he’d get me caught up.” If he hadn’t spent so much extra time in Defense Against the Dark Arts, Spellwork would easily have been Dade’s point of strength when it came to magic. Even without studying, Dade should have been able to pass both Spellwork and Defense, but just looking at the tests had made Dade’s mind blank and panic. “I wish I could do that for this class,” he grumped, more characteristically.

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