Is that a proposition?
Sun Jan 28, 2018 20:34

Holland once again had the feeling, like they had gotten last year in the Lyra practice room, that they were having this conversation wrong—like they were being tested on a chapter they hadn’t studied. Between the two of them they had to be able to come up with the answers, but Holland was still jumping down the page looking for a problem they could solve on their own.

And there was one. One that apparently needed solving, because Danny was obsessed with the language Holland had used when they talked to him in his dorm. “I am interested,” Holland said, frustrated. Was that not clear from what they’d already said today? If they weren’t interested then they wouldn’t have proposed going on a date.

If that was an exam question, though, Holland had only answered part A. Like Danny had said, there were other things to consider, and Holland wasn’t sure what their role in the deliberation process was. They had proposed a date and Danny had all but shot them down, which Holland felt sent a pretty clear message. It was the approximate response they had expected when they decided to say something anyway. They hadn’t told Danny they liked him for his benefit; they had told him for them, to make the situation clearer, to help them get over it. Ultimately that plan seemed to have backfired—or misfired, anyway. The situation had become clearer only to show Holland that they wanted something they couldn’t have.

“I like you. But that’s why I said it wouldn’t change anything when I told you. I didn’t think you would—” They never had until Danny had repeatedly hinted otherwise. They couldn’t forsee Danny giving up any of the privileges that came with being his family’s heir. Holland’s knowledge of what exactly that entailed was incomplete, but they’d heard enough over the years that they thought they could piece together the level of money and connections Danny was benefitting from.

Of course, most people managed fine without millions of Galleons’ worth of inheritance, or standing in the upper echelons of wizarding society, or a literal mansion in which to live. Holland was starting with nothing but their RMI transcripts and the limited funds their parents had saved for them over the past eighteen years. That might get them through the first few semesters, depending on which college they chose, and after that it would be up to scholarships and loans to make up the difference. But that was how it worked for normal people. If they could do it—

“Anyway, you’re right,” Holland said, more matter-of-fact than upset. They’d only been proven right. “It’s a smarter decision. I get it.” Smarter by an order of magnitude. Going out with Holland wasn’t worth risking everything Danny had to lose, but Holland was worth someone who’d be willing to take a risk. They were ready to be done with this discussion. If Danny didn’t think dating them was worth it, Holland wasn’t going to stand here and try to convince him otherwise.

  • So show me some action - Danny, Sun Jan 28 15:38
    Danny emitted a vexed huff of dissatisfaction. He understood why Holland wasn’t thrilled with that response, but what did they want him to say? That sure they could just go on a few dates like nobody ... more
    • Is that a proposition? - Holland, Sun Jan 28 20:34
      • Let's say Yes - Danny, Mon Jan 29 09:53
        “I am interested .” Finally Holland had said something definitive. “I like you.” The tightness in Danny’s chest was alleviated, and it was sensational to hear those words spoken, but they did not... more
        • I can’t just yet - Holland, Mon Jan 29 12:41
          Holland sighed. Sure, now that Danny had said they should both just forget about this and Holland had agreed, why not explore a scenario in which they had gone on successful dates and wanted to keep... more
          • Tease - Danny, Tue Jan 30 06:44
            “Right,” he agreed immediately that Holland had practise handling situations. They had previously discussed that dating was easier for Danny than it was for Holland; just because it was suddenly less ... more
            • You started it - Holland, Tue Jan 30 12:05
              “I remember,” Holland said, in a tone suggesting there was no need for elaboration. First-year Holland had been able to handle first-year Danny well enough for him to get over his prejudicial... more
              • You can finish it - Danny, Tue Jan 30 14:29
                Holland laughed at Danny’s suggestion, which was definitely a reasonable reaction, although it also sounded suspiciously like Holland wasn’t instinctively and immediately ruling out that option. “But ... more
                • I think I will - Holland, Tue Jan 30 15:35
                  Danny took Holland’s hand, and they had that sensation of being shocked again, like a shudder that went all the way down to the base of their spine. After the whole intense circuitous conversation... more
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