We had so little time to shine
Tue May 29, 2018 16:22

Finally Holland’s expression sprung out of a frown, and at a juncture that Danny would not have expected to elicit a grin if he was talking to anyone else. Right. Holland couldn’t separate the opportunity from the means; they needed Danny to earn a position at Cirrus before they could be supportive of it. It was certainly not the first time the two Lyras’ different understandings of social hierarchy had resulted in altered perceptions of the same scenario, and Danny did not believe it would be the last. At least seven years of debating all kinds of everything with Holland had prepared them both for discussions without argument, although Danny wasn’t as quick yet as he would like to be at figuring out precisely what was bothering them. This time he’d gotten there on his own, at least, and they grinned at him. Danny rolled his eyes but smiled anyway, trying not to look too pleased with himself.

He didn’t want to commit to working as hard as he could - that sounded arduous. Contrary to popular opinion, he did study, a little bit, when it suited him. He paid particular attention to subjects that interested him, and he took pleasure in discussing and debating fascinating topics, and did plentiful extra reading where that didn’t feel like a chore. He took exceptional notes that prevented him from needing to read back over material or review a lecture; he had a good memory and a knack for identifying grading criteria, which made it easy for him to score well. Even in extracurricular activities Danny avoided engaging in those that did not come naturally to him, instead investing his time more profitably: for example, while he liked Quidditch, he was not so enthusiastic about the sport as he was about playing to a crowd and exerting his energy. By using drills as workouts, team practices as social interaction, and games as an opportunity to show off, Danny had somehow developed a talent for the sport, and been, in his humble opinion, a reasonable captain for the past two years.

His talents for achieving maximum results with minimum effort could probably translate to succeeding at college, even with the hard work Holland purported, but he couldn’t predict how he would react in a workplace, where his actions would have actual impact on the functioning of an almost-global corporation. He was drawn to the challenge, just not the hard work. “I’d have to study at Cirrus, too,” he said, taking the letter up again and re-reading the third page. “On top of working full time. It’s… it’d be a lot,” he acknowledged.

What would he be doing otherwise - taking increasingly illicit substances with Marissa? That’s how they had spent down time in the past, it didn’t seem implausible to assume that would become future reality if Danny was at college. In fact, in previous bouts of overthinking, he had been concerned that his studies might not turn out to be as enticing as other things he could do to pass the time. At Cirrus, if he was working and studying for the qualifications and license that allowed him to remain there, and proving to his coworkers and to Holland that he deserved to be there, and making his grandfather proud by benefiting his company, he wouldn’t have time to mess up. Or to worry about other things that he had inevitably overthought.

“Might be as well to keep busy,” he said with a shrug. “Keep me distracted from worrying about you meeting someone you like more than me,” Danny attempted a light-hearted tease, but didn’t quite hit the note, falling on an accidental flat that betrayed more genuine concern than he’d been planning to convey.

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