Sometimes I'm agreeable
Thu Sep 21, 2017 06:46

Wow Holland said a lot of words. Wow.

Dade’s hazel eyes grew very round as Holland explained gender, which was something that Dade had previously been entirely sure did not require any explanation. It was simple, or so he’d thought. As it turned out, it was not a thing that was simple and it was a little mind-boggling. He was unsure if he had any questions because all of the ideas were so new to him. Holland was a non-binary? That meant he - that meant they were a boy and a girl? That explained why he - they wore boy clothes and girl clothes interchangably. But was Holland really a boy or a girl? Dade frowned. It was different for girls. They were already allowed to wear boy clothes. Well, at least at RMI. It was a big deal at home that Rose refused to wear skirts and dresses. Was Holland a nonbinary because they weren’t a boy or a girl? But that seemed strange to Dade.

He was unusually silent for a long time, mostly staring at bookshelves as he thought.

Did this mean he was a nonbinary? Did Rose think he was a nonbinary and that was why she asked Holland to talk to him? Dade had never thought about things like pronouns before and had barely thought about things like clothes, except that he was sick of dressing just like his brother. He’d asked Remington if she would help him pick out better clothes when they were older and could go up on Pearl Street together and she said yes, but Dade hadn’t thought about what kind of clothes. Plus, if he was a nonbinary, how would he go about telling everyone? What would his roommates think?

This was very stressful. Dade scowled. Why did stupid Rose have to tell Holland about this? Why couldn’t she just keep her mouth shut?

“So Rose thinks I’m a nonbinary.” he said flatly, anxiety fluttering in his chest. Dade was pretty sure Rose wouldn’t tell their father anything like that, and his sister was friends with Holland, but having someone know something about him that he didn’t know about him was terrifying.

  • So we agree on something - Holland, Mon Sep 18 17:07
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    • Sometimes I'm agreeable - Dade, Thu Sep 21 06:46
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        • So Rose thought he might be ‘questioning his gender’ or the way he ‘expressed his gender’. Dade scowled. He didn’t even know what that meant. He had mostly followed along with Holland’s explanation... more
          • Is it made of blue cheese? - Holland, Fri Sep 29 04:00
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            • Blue cheese isn't that blue - Dade, Sat Sep 30 15:48
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              • Maybe the moon is Swiss cheese - Holland, Sat Sep 30 19:19
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                • I don't think the Swiss are smurfs - Dade, Sat Oct 14 15:21
                  Nope this was bad. Very bad. Holland kept talking and Dade just felt more and more uncomfortable. He kind of wanted to ask more questions, but he also very much did not want to ask more questions.... more
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