Perhaps you could repay in kind
Tue Sep 19, 2017 14:38

She waited with very well - if she said so herself - concealed apprehension for Connor to formulate his reply. By wrapping her hands around her mug she was able to distract herself from inflicting any damage to, or with, her fingers or their nails, and her lack of fidgeting made it very easy to actually listen to and process what Connor was saying, rather than just hearing the words without any semantic attachment.

When he claimed to not be strictly opposed, Claudia felt some degree of pleasure. She hardly expected him to immediately acquiesce and proclaim hitherto unspoken emotional attachment to her, and she would not hold any respect for him if he did, so just to hear that he wasn’t opposed to the notion was mildly satisfying. She should have expected that he would feel the entire scenario improprietous, so while his eventual answer was disappointing, it wasn’t surprising. She couldn’t help but feel affronted he had suggested she would do anything unseemly, which was the reason for the frown she wore as she replied, “I’m hardly proposing an elopement, Connor.”

She was beginning to wonder whether she should continue to pursue this radical plan. Naturally Connor was taken aback, so perhaps Claudia should take that as a polite rejection and abandon her plan. After all, if he was against any sort of non-platonic arrangement, then he probably wouldn’t agree to one with Marley, either. On the other hand, if Claudia and Connor were to be considered a couple by their peers, Claudia would still save Marley the rejection, and Connor from any potential future interference from the Lyra, as well as the completely obsolete satisfaction she would experience from knowing that actually someone did like her enough to voluntarily be publicly aligned with her. She took another sip of her seasonal drink, sighed, and then addressed the issue at hand.

“I understand your hesitation,” she began, “and I’m certainly not obligating you to indulge me in any manner you consider unseemly,” she intentionally repeated the word he had used to incense her. Slowly and delicately, she continued, “I merely have considered that we might be approaching the age at which more intimate acquaintanceships might be palpable - certainly our peers have mentioned entering into informal arrangements -” (that didn’t count as telling Connor that Marley was interested, she was quite sure of it) “and I felt compelled to express to you that I am not in opposition to the concept of promoting an explicit exclusivity of our friendship.” And then she took a very long sip of her hot chocolate because that was almost as nerve-wracking as asking Jordan to dance in front of everyone, and Claudia would very much like to take everything back and return to hiding in solitude in her room, away from everyone else and their ideals of social romanticism. Instead she would sip her hot chocolate and hope that her cheeks weren’t burning too vividly.

  • Much more helpful, thank you - Connor, Tue Sep 19 11:51
    Connor had no idea what to expect from Claudia until she said the word ‘non-platonic’ and that was when his brain shut down. He sipped his hot chocolate as she suggested that it was probably more his ... more
    • Perhaps you could repay in kind - Claudia, Tue Sep 19 14:38
      • If I must - Connor, Wed Sep 20 10:23
        Connor made a face when Claudia pointed out that they were hardly going to elope. Of course they weren’t; that didn’t make his concerns about how reasonable this suggestion was invalid. He still... more
        • Mission accomplished - Claudia, Fri Sep 22 15:07
          Claudia took comfort in not being the only person at the table who was currently afflicted by reddened cheeks. She was loathe to cause Connor discomfort, but if she was suffering then it was somehow... more
          • That wasn't too painful - Connor, Sun Oct 1 13:01
            “It would make the most sense to set up a regular meeting,” Connor said, straightening his shirt nervously. It did sound pleasant, but it also felt weirdly...high stakes to him. Which was ridiculous, ... more
            • No pain, no gain - Claudia, Tue Oct 3 15:25
              “I concur,” Claudia smiled, self-satisfied that she had correctly predicted Connor’s reaction. “I hope you don’t think me too bold to suggest Sunday afternoons on Pearl Street.” It was a time when... more
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