You have worse ones, probably
Fri Mar 16, 2018 21:46

“You did.” Marissa couldn’t deny it, and she knew that. All of this was her fault, really. She could have tried to initiate something, but she wanted to give Danny and Holland their space to be… them. Marissa didn’t trust herself to not screw that up entirely for them. She knew she didn’t always make the best decisions – her stomach churned with guilt over Russell for an unknown number of times – and while she was super supportive and happy for the two Lyra’s… what if she did something wrong?

Now that she was looking at Danny, in the pool with her, both uncomfortable with whatever was happening, she had some kind of confirmation that… no, she wouldn’t do anything. Danny was still attractive and fun and everything, but that wasn’t there anymore. She still loved him, but it wasn’t the kind of love that made her want to sneak off to the passageways or find a romantic spot in the fake outdoors. That was slightly comforting.

“I’m sorry. It started off as giving us some space, then I just got busy with, you know, with everything, and then … I have missed you.”

“Me too,” she said, half mumbled, because Danny kept talking and she wasn’t about to speak over him. She hadn’t considered herself any busier than usual. Yes, the college applications added on to her life, but in the end they didn’t really matter. Sometimes she fantasized about not even going to college at all, but she wouldn’t dare say that out loud. Rose would judge her, and her parents wouldn’t have that. Marissa found that slightly hypocritical since her dad never went to college, but apparently it was a thing. Their family really cared about higher education. It made sense, she supposed, but that didn’t make it any more convenient or desirable for the Aquila.

The idea of checking in on each other was nice, but it didn’t really sound like something that would happen. Still, she nodded and agreed, because that seemed like the right thing to do. “Of course.” Her gaze drifted away from Danny and to the water in front of him. The more she swam, the more she liked it. Her fair skin never leant itself to the beach, but maybe… it would be nice to go. A real beach, with real sunshine and sand and alcohol and parties. It was so weird to feel like she had her whole life ahead of her, but she simply couldn’t imagine anything past this last year at school.

“Everyone’s been busy,” she said, not really thinking about the fact she was speaking, “I get it. Maybe after Christmas, everyone will have more time for…” she trailed off, not sure what she wanted people to have time for. Her? Seriously, selfish. “I dunno. What are you doing for midterm?”

  • Not one of my strongest qualities - Danny, Fri Mar 16 06:27
    “Oh, so now you want to hang out with me?” Marissa fluidly maneuvered in the water so she was no longer lying on her back; Danny followed suit, his height advantage allowing him to stand on the... more
    • You have worse ones, probably - Marissa, Fri Mar 16 21:46
      • I have been known to make Bad Choices - Danny, Sun Mar 18 04:26
        “Everyone will have more time after Christmas,” Danny assured Marissa, with the confidence of someone who believed entirely the words he was speaking. If she was down because everyone had just been... more
        • Bad choices tend to be more fun - Marissa, Sun Mar 18 14:12
          Marissa nodded a little with Danny’s agreement. He seemed to truly think people would have more time after Christmas. More time for what, Marissa wasn’t entirely sure. Rose and Emmett spent quite a... more
          • Depends on your options - Danny, Sun Mar 18 15:26
            Marissa’s midterm sounded chilled out, which was probably exactly what she needed. It was difficult to properly kick back and relax when there was so much stress around at school - it was like exam... more
            • Limited, it seems - Marissa, Fri Mar 23 12:46
              “You’re going to tell your parents?” Marissa’s question was accompanied by raised eyebrows and a grin. Now this she could talk about. The subject was infinitely better than college plans and her... more
              • Yikes - Danny, Mon Mar 26 15:49
                “You’re going to tell your parents?” Marissa asked, grinning, and surprised. Danny chuckled as he glided serenely past her in the water. He guessed it was legitimate for Marissa to sound surprised,... more
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