But my answer isn’t
Sat Apr 7, 2018 12:54

Ah. This made more sense than an apology.

Holland took a moment to collect their thoughts. They had prepared for this conversation. Not for Claudia in particular—the argument had been drafted with Danny’s parents in mind—but that detail wasn’t especially important. This topic had come up before the question of telling Danny’s family had arisen, although Holland hadn’t imagined having to deal with Claudia asking them to break up with Danny. She had to already know that they were going to say no, right?

“I really like Danny,” Holland said, not breaking eye contact, in partial affirmation of Claudia’s concluding statement, “which is why I’m prepared to go up against people who don’t want us to be together.” Claudia included: the first name on that list, but not the last. “We have already discussed the potential fallout, and we know that other people could cause problems because of our relationship.” Claudia included. The problems she might cause were less significant than the expected objections of others (Claudia’s influence over the situation was limited), but also more persistent (it would be unpleasant if Danny’s sister kept refusing to accept their relationship).

Holland didn’t have specific knowledge of the broader implications that not disallowing the relationship would have for the Duboises, but they had after serious thought concluded it wasn’t their responsibility to base choices on those factors. If the people actually taking the risks were prepared to do so, Holland wasn’t going to second-guess their decisions. “Danny has said that the kind of friends who would shun him because of our relationship aren’t people he wants to keep being friends with. And your parents have already chosen not to oppose our relationship, knowing the same things you know.” Alex and Ivy had made their decision. Said decision had surprised Holland—they had expected a worse outcome than disapproving support—but it had been made. At least for now. The most cynical part of Holland wanted to see how Danny’s parents’ support held up to censure from outsiders. Fair-weather allyship was a nice gesture, and probably the best they could have expected for now, but it didn’t mean much.

“I’m sorry that your society is so backwards-thinking that it refuses to accept gender-sexual minorities, but I’m not going to make my decisions out of fear of retribution or discrimination.” If they did, they’d never get anything done. There was little Holland, Danny, or anyone else could do to immediately sway the opinions of those determined to be on the wrong side of history. Exposure to people from different backgrounds might cure some prejudices, but diverse contacts were in short supply for insular aristocrats. “I do understand what it’s like to be disliked. That’s why it doesn’t scare me.

“It’s possible that we’ll break up in the future,” Holland allowed. No matter how much they’d discussed hypothetical futures, and despite that Marissa had said most adults she knew ended up in long-term relationships with their RMI sweethearts, they were still both eighteen-year-olds on the verge of graduation. A breakup was more likely than not without all the extra complications of their specific relationship. Things were good right now, though. “But if that happens it would be because one of us isn’t interested in dating the other anymore, not because we don’t want to offend a group of bigots.” Holland did want to offend those people, actually.

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